thrice.

i have groceries in my kitchen for the first time in two years you have the effect of a home on me i learn to cook 

so you can learn to savor my love for longer than i will ever feel it which is to say for longer than i will ever feel anything which is to say forever and i have only said that word in my entire forever insofar 

once. when i was first born 

twice. when i promised myself i would wait to meet you to die 

and here i am dying as i fool myself into thinking i fully know you finally but then you smile an inch wider or speak a decibel more lovingly or spook a new goosebump on my heart and i learn to unlearn you because you are still here

dying to learn me more than i can fool myself into thinking i know myself and who are you is a question i can answer 

with my index finger pointed at my favorite time traveling telling freckle on your body without the shame of making people think i am reliant 

for a definition because my synonym is as explaining as ten describing words and a couple examples of how to use myself in a sentence

i will love you (forever)