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i’ve lost count
of the mornings
of the evenings
of the passing of time
of the times that i’ve asked the world to hold on
and you had already asked it for me
and you were already holding on
to the hem of my shirt
to the hand of my heart
to my lifeline like a lifeline
but without the codependent part
because i know there are very few other words
that you’d rather not hold on to
of the times you’ve proved me wrong
about how much it sucks or how bad it hurts
and proved to me that i am worth
falling in love for and falling in love to
and baby i fell in love with you
when you were sad
and baby imagine what it will feel like
when you finally smile
and it’s because you’ve lost count
of your smiles
of your tears
and you are so brave for letting me lose count of those
of your laughs
and you are so brave for letting me lose count of those
of your blinks
and yes i was counting and even when you were asleep
of the times i have watched you be completely impressed by the simplest things
of the times you have taught me that those are also the most beautiful
i’ve lost count of the reasons
why i started counting
but i will always count your blessings
just to make sure you have enough
and enough is an infinite amount for you
and will still never amount to what you deserve
i will count your candles
and make sure the number is right
and when you get to a certain age
i will make sure the number is wrong
i will count to ten if i lose my temper
and count to twenty if i lose my mind
which happens often and sometimes even naturally
i will count your eyelashes
and so i will count your wishes
to make sure none of them get left behind
and if you ever wish me to lose count of the days i’ve gone without you
i will wish against your wishes for the first time
and i will count down the days until i’m with you
losing count of the mornings
and the evenings
and the mornings
and the evenings
and the mornings
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